What Should I Do About My Marriage?

I need help to guide me through life. I don't know if I'm going in the right direction or the wrong direction. I don't want to live a life like this and i especially don't want my 2 little girls to grow up knowing this kind of life. Here is the story.

My husband and I have been married for about 2 years now. We met each other through internet chatting. He told me he was a virgin and i told him i'm a virgin also. We connected very well together and I gave out my number to him. He was living in Oklahoma then and I'm from Wisconsin. We talked and talked for hours every single night. He would get jealous if I tell him to hold up while I pick up the other line. He thinks that I'm cheating on him even though he said that at the time we weren't dating. We soon were saying we love and miss each other over the phone. He had been sleeping around with a girl he met at parties that he goes to and then still calls me and says that he misses and loves me and gives me a kiss over the phone. We claim each other as boyfriend and girlfriend even though he never asked to date me. I have been loyal to him only and wait for his calls everyday.

After 6 months of talking on the phone he moved up to Wisconsin. He said that his intentions were to just sleep with me and move on, but somehow he really fell in love with me. We had our first daughter together a year after he moved to Wisconsin and we got married. After we got married, I realized that I don't know him at all. It's like he's a changed person. He's not the person that I married. He acts mean and don't dress up anymore. He disrespects me and does everything just to satisfy his needs and can care less about how hurt I am or what I think.

I worked for a whole year while he stayed home, while i pay for all the bills. Nobody would let him rent an apartment only I could so everything was under my name. He finally found a job the day I gave birth to my first daughter. He had the job for about a month and he quit because his friends came and visit and he wanted to spend time with them. After that the longest he can ever hold a job was for one week and then he stopped looking for jobs and just stay home and play on his PS3 and online games. I picked up extra hours and looked like a zombie because i was at work all the time.

He told his friends that I spend all his money that's why he don't have any money and is unable to save up any because he lets me spend all the money on things I want. He doesn't claim that our first child is his. He said that I'm not a virgin when he married me (ofcourse because I already gave birth to his child how can i be a virgin) and that he was the second person to get my body only. He said I married him because I saw that he was a rich man. He said that I'm not the one that he loves and he never thought of marrying me. He only married me because we have a child together and he felt he needed to marry me. He said that I ruined his life. He said that he had sex with the party girl one last time before he moved up to wisconsin. He said that he had sex with more than one girls before he met me. He said that he wanted to move to North Carolina after he slept with me. He said that I used up all his money that's why we couldn't buy plane tickets to go visit his parents in california. He said I'm the one who ruined his life.

First of all, I was a virgin and he was the first to ever get my body. Now I married him so he is the only one to get my body. I gave him 2 beautiful girls that he don't claim as his. I barely get to spend any money on myself because I'm paying all the bills and he steals money without telling me. I know I'm stupid for falling for his stupid lies and sleeping with him now my girls have to deal with the fact that he is their father. I work 3 jobs just to try and make enough money so we can go visit his parents. I want my in-laws to see their grandchildren and I love my in-laws dearly.

My problem is that my husband thinks that his ex girlfriends are better than me and he always compares me to them. He keeps bringing up the fact that he does this and that to them in bed which makes me feel really angry. He doesn't respect me and don't see anything that I do. He sees it as himself only. I feel that i want to take my girls away from this kind of a man. They don't need to know that he is their father since they are so young I can always find someone else to be a real father to them, right? Every time I want to talk or is serious, he gets angry and says I always bring up the same topic. I told him his past haunts me and things he says hurts me but he refuses to listen. I want to give up on this marriage and leave him. Because of my culture I have to have approval from his side and my side of the family to divorce. I know I can give my girls a better life without him in the picture. If I lean towards divorce am i

its seems your husband totally taking advantage of you and disrespecting you.
If you lean towards divorce you are a free women. you do not need need to keep a monitor lizard in your house (in our culture monitor lizard is a man that do not do anything just eat and sleep).
its up to you.